I refer to both self-expectations as well as expectations from others here.
When I first joined the teaching force, I was eager to prove myself, eager to stand out from the rest. Subsequently I understand that we can't rush things, I slowed down my pace and concentrate on my teaching, my pupils.
The first opportunity knocked last November when my P smsed me to ask if I would like to take on some responsibility with regards to contribution to the school. I remembered what my DD said that we should grab any opportunity that comes knocking at our door if we feel that we can handle it. Hence, I accepted my P's offer despite am taking the P6 HCL class this year.
Then I was asked to be the P2 level rep during week 2 of term 1. I accepted it because there was no option? Haha......
As the SYF competition is nearing, my P is getting more concerned over the various Aesthetics CCA groups' progress. I just had the Dialogue session with her and from what she shared with me, I can feel that she has high expectations.
All of a sudden, I feel very stressed up. Stress, not because I have to do a lot of work. I feel stressed out because of the expectations placed on me. Not only from the P but from my HOD as well. My name is appearing in more and more projects.
I am really worried that I will perform below expectations and be condemned from then on. Especially after my dialogue session, I can see that when my P feels that you are not performing to her expectation, you are gone!
Today I saw how my HOD treats someone whom I think she didn't really like. She really portrays a different look and display a totally different attitude which in my opinion is quite obvious to the rest of the people.
I supposed I have to channel my brain to think positively: Give my best and leave the rest to that "Someone Up There". :)
